Measuring up!

I remember my childhood and how I love to go to school. The eagerness to listen and understand the lessons came to me naturally. I was never forced by my parents to study and that is why I'm also trying to be that kind of parent. The current situation with my boys however, seems to push me to be the commander-in- chief instead of the lenient coach. There are days that I slacken and just let them be but then I realized I may have gone too easy on them that they miss the whole point of good study habits! I would have to say that this internal war within is one of my challenges as a mother of two grade school boys. The massive influence of technology seems to be pulling my kids towards a life of quick and easy results losing the value of patience, perseverance, diligence and hard work.

My head is spinning with confusion many times, trying to find the balance I so needed to be a good mother and teacher to my children. I realized that when I am frustrated of something I fail to do as a parent, it is easier to put a blame on others like there's a problem with the school system, the teacher, and I can even go down as far as blaming my child's seatmate. It is only when I have come to my senses and have been humble enough to admit my errors do I see what I need to do or what needs to be done.

I start to ask questions like, "what is really important to me-aiming for high grades or the acquisition of knowledge?, the praise of the general public or the quiet satisfaction that my child has learned at his own pace? High Grades or total development? It is only when I answer these questions do I find peace and direction of what I need to do. With a prayer in my heart and a great amount of love, I can now have a clearer perspective of what I hope to lead my kids to. Pease don't misunderstand, I absolutely think that my kids are smart- in fact I would say nobody is born stupid. All of us have the capacity to grow and expand our knowledge as long as we desire to. That is the very reason why I want them to learn so much- for them to be better and wiser and reach their full potential. 

I know I am not perfect especially in the subject of motherhood. I can only do the best I can. With constant self reflection, teamwork with my husband  and a lot of help from Him above, I feel assured that everything will be just fine. 

After a year or so of silence

Have you ever felt that you wanted to write and then held back because you thought what's the point of writing when you only have very few followers? Duh? So true for me but then I realized that the main reason I started this family blog is not for anybody else but for me. This is my outlet, my tunnel out of a busy, tiring and maybe dreary day. Days have passed by, weeks, months and even a year has passed and guess what? I really didn't post anything at all.

Can I sum up what happen in a year in just one post? Well, let me give it a try...

1. Hallie turned 2 last August 17 and she is such a darling to the family. She loves to play dress up and put on my lipstick. She enjoys cuddling her googly bear and twirly pinky bear. She also loves to play with her brothers even if it involves sword fighting ( lol!)

2. Helaman started first grade and just as he has leveled up, so is his reasoning skills...oooh! there are days that I just want to laugh at how he responds when I question him and there are also moments when I just want to blow off steam... why oh why...

3. Henry got baptized and it was such a special moment for all of us. He has taken the first step in following the path the Savior has taught and I earnestly pray that he'll grow up to be a good young man.

4. Dan and I are enjoying the journey of parenthood and as husband and wife. I can say that we are growing to be so much alike in many ways. So far so good as they say...

5. When it comes to career, Dan opened his business again and this time I took matters in my hands. I did all the legwork and it was a great learning experience. I still have a lot to learn though and somehow I can see a bright future in this endeavor as I help him build up his career or shall I say our career. hehe!

6. Dan got released from his call as a bishop and is now currently serving as a counselor in the stake presidentcy. He pretty much enjoys his meetings but misses being a bishop. As one scripture verse say.. "to everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under the heavens" He is striving to grow where he is called and I am and will sustain him whatever that calling will be.

 

I guess these pretty much sums up what happened the past year. We have weathered storms along the way both as a result of bad choices and part of the challenges of life. We just have to move forward and press on.