Measuring up!

I remember my childhood and how I love to go to school. The eagerness to listen and understand the lessons came to me naturally. I was never forced by my parents to study and that is why I'm also trying to be that kind of parent. The current situation with my boys however, seems to push me to be the commander-in- chief instead of the lenient coach. There are days that I slacken and just let them be but then I realized I may have gone too easy on them that they miss the whole point of good study habits! I would have to say that this internal war within is one of my challenges as a mother of two grade school boys. The massive influence of technology seems to be pulling my kids towards a life of quick and easy results losing the value of patience, perseverance, diligence and hard work.

My head is spinning with confusion many times, trying to find the balance I so needed to be a good mother and teacher to my children. I realized that when I am frustrated of something I fail to do as a parent, it is easier to put a blame on others like there's a problem with the school system, the teacher, and I can even go down as far as blaming my child's seatmate. It is only when I have come to my senses and have been humble enough to admit my errors do I see what I need to do or what needs to be done.

I start to ask questions like, "what is really important to me-aiming for high grades or the acquisition of knowledge?, the praise of the general public or the quiet satisfaction that my child has learned at his own pace? High Grades or total development? It is only when I answer these questions do I find peace and direction of what I need to do. With a prayer in my heart and a great amount of love, I can now have a clearer perspective of what I hope to lead my kids to. Pease don't misunderstand, I absolutely think that my kids are smart- in fact I would say nobody is born stupid. All of us have the capacity to grow and expand our knowledge as long as we desire to. That is the very reason why I want them to learn so much- for them to be better and wiser and reach their full potential. 

I know I am not perfect especially in the subject of motherhood. I can only do the best I can. With constant self reflection, teamwork with my husband  and a lot of help from Him above, I feel assured that everything will be just fine.